Category Archives: Death

I’m Sorry I Made You Worry, Mom

Hi Mom, I heard this awful news last night- that the gun shots that some people heard a few days ago here in Vancouver were not just real, but also ended up killing someone. A young guy. He was just in his car going to a birthday party. He had come to Vancouver a coupleContinue reading “I’m Sorry I Made You Worry, Mom”

“Slow Down, Baby” – Thanks Mommy

Dear Mom, Lately, I feel like I am giving more and more people advice to slow down, to not put pressure on themselves so much, and to rest. I might even find myself saying, “Take a day or more off, and have a cup of tea.” I know where I learned this: from you. AndContinue reading ““Slow Down, Baby” – Thanks Mommy”

Mask On, Mask Off?

Dear Mom, There’s a pandemic going on right now. You probably already know that, or, I don’t know how news like that works after someone passed away. Do you just know everything that’s going on? Or energetically, can you just feel the bigness of it?- like you are aware that people are really getting testedContinue reading “Mask On, Mask Off?”

Five years later feels like just yesterday

Dear Mom, I’ve been anticipating this date with so much dread and heaviness- February 10th. Exactly five years ago today, February 10th, 2015, you had fallen outside of your place and that eventually led to your passing away, a shock to all of us, including you, I am sure. It breaks my heart everytime IContinue reading “Five years later feels like just yesterday”

Another Little Laila

Dear Mom, I haven’t gone to the gym yet, which is what I’m really trying to get myself to get into the habit of doing more consistently. But what I have been doing consistently is practising singing. I love it. Last week, I went to a karaoke night all ready to sing “for you” asContinue reading “Another Little Laila”

Layla by Eric Clapton

Hi Mom,   I was talking to someone about you a couple of weeks ago near my place. I think I was saying the usual broken record stuff about how I’m not sure that I feel you. I don’t know if the signs are you. I don’t know if you are okay. (Yeah, I amContinue reading “Layla by Eric Clapton”

Laila, oh Leila, Layla

Dear Mom, Besides latching onto hearing your name called out in a cemetery as a sign that you’re okay, I also have been following your name around in terms of other types of signs. The first one I remember is when I was apartment hunting. After you passed away, just after actually, I needed toContinue reading “Laila, oh Leila, Layla”

On Mother’s Day

Dear Mom, This year, on Mother’s Day, I felt like I was procrastinating so much on what I had planned to do, which was to go to the cemetery and visit your grave stone. I wanted to get up, just eat some breakfast, buy some flowers, and head out as soon as I could, toContinue reading “On Mother’s Day”

Was that you?

Dear Mom, Although for these four years, I keep praying and asking for you to give me a sign that you’re okay, I wonder how to know when the sign has already appeared. What if I just ‘missed’ it? I’m thinking in particular about what other people might have viewed as a very ‘clear message’Continue reading “Was that you?”