Dear Mom, A few days ago, I ran into someone we knew from so many years ago. Actually, you told me the story of how he was born within a few days of my birth. You and his mom were in the hospital at the same time. I loved it when you’d tell me thatContinue reading “I Should Have Stood Up For You”
Category Archives: God
Was that you?
Dear Mom, Although for these four years, I keep praying and asking for you to give me a sign that you’re okay, I wonder how to know when the sign has already appeared. What if I just ‘missed’ it? I’m thinking in particular about what other people might have viewed as a very ‘clear message’Continue reading “Was that you?”
Morning Prayer- 4 Years Now
Dear Mom, I still have really bad nightmares about you. I had one just this morning. You weren’t happy, and I also now feel like you’re not happy with me. I don’t know why. I don’t know why I feel this way or dream these things. It really hurts my heart and makes theContinue reading “Morning Prayer- 4 Years Now”
Good Mother
Dear Mom, I have a new prayer song I sing at Karaoke. For you. To you. It’s called Good Mother and it’s by one of my favorite singer -songwriters- Jann Arden. She’s Canadian. She is really funny and great in live concerts. I used to really like the song Good Mother when you were here, physicallyContinue reading “Good Mother”
YOUR favor
I used to love this kind of thinking, and I can believe it for myself. I mean, right from the start, everything WAS rigged in my favor. I got you as a mom. That is absolute proof right there. And I still experience so much goodness, and “luck” and beautiful happenings that make me feelContinue reading “YOUR favor”
Little Rookie
Dear Mom, I had a t-shirt that said “Little Rookie” on it. Why do I remember that? I barely remember anything from my childhood. But that, for some reason, has stuck out to me for all these years. I don’t remember exactly what the t-shirt looked like. I imagine it to be kind of aContinue reading “Little Rookie”
What About Angels?
Dear Mom, This is the journal entry I wrote to you yesterday on Mother’s Day: I’m sitting at your gravestone right now on a beach mat you gave me a long time ago. I keep it in the trunk of your car so I can pull it out whenever I come here, and sit moreContinue reading “What About Angels?”
Leaving Notes,… Just in Case
Dear Mom, I hate this quote that starts, “Those who died yesterday had plans.” I know it’s supposed to make us all stop and think and go out and do all those things that we want to do before it’s too late. Not to take life for granted as it says. But all it doesContinue reading “Leaving Notes,… Just in Case”
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